A Short Conversation With Myself

When I feel cold without your warmth,
 why when I'm alone, I need to keep myself
 hustling with something productive.
When I stop, I get unwanted thoughts.
Some I dare not even want to think about in
 the first place.

Constantly keeping myself in check.

Questioning my actions.
Did I do my best today?
Did I make you feel special today?
Did I let you know I love you today?
Did I start and end my day letting you know and feel I care?
Apologized for my shortcomings?
I am probably in paranoia.
But also, doing my best not to overthink.
I do know, when I get to this point, I know
 I care about you dearly.
And with that being said, I know for a fact...
For me, you are the real deal.