Thoughts in a minute or so...

We've all heard the line "when life gives you lemon, make lemon juice"..

That being said, I could probably make gallons of it.

If I were to rekindle college days, the clearest moment I would always remember was that of when I thought of myself being so independent, I could do everything myself. To the point that I thought I could live on my own, up to a certain time that is.

I figured it out, probably for a good year or two.

That's how positive I felt..that - yeah I could make it work.

I was so blinded by the very fact that I was barely into my second year in college, because I found work.

And "love". 

So I thought, more specifically for the latter.

Looks good.

Look at it this way, say, refer to my near sightedness outlook of life as a video game.

You kick off your game (character, avatar or race car) well with starter packs or loots, plenty of freebies with achievements, the levels are easy to moderate as you progress, those kind of perks.

But when you get to that point where in, you've maxed out all possible upgrades from all the freebies you were given, you realize, you haven't really started the real race or hit the main story of the game.

All you did was simply prepared what you could, get used to the controls, buttons, shortcuts and what not, know your way around maps and menus and sort of settings that would work splendidly with how you play.

But it didn't matter at all.

And when you look at the other players or the AI you been competing with, you realized, how come you're far behind?

And then, the truth nips your sorry bum.

It wasnt entirely a set up, no.

You were lured or enticed to participate. And then, you're in.

You made your choice and through the course of a given time frame, evaluated where you're at.

Two things.

Find another game or revert back to whatever it was you spent more time with.

So going back to how I thought of myself being invincible back then, like a game, I was merely enjoying the free tokens, the rewards for first's amongs other things - achievements, easy levels and upgrades.

In other words, I saw things but shortened the distance. It was a breeze, yet it didn't last long.

When reality really sat in, that's when it got me thinking.

What the heck was I thinking?!

I admit, it was bold of me exploring and testing my potential.

And when I was standing on the borderline of expectation, I started questioning my actions.

All those decisions.

Action, reaction.

Cause and effect.

We make mistakes, that's undeniable, inconceivably unavoidable and infinitively constant.

While we wish we could have done better, we cant. Wishing for the past cant change crap.

Wishing for the future, yes, a chance for something better.

Our lives are on a day-to-day. Simply put, each waking moment is a gift. 

I guess you could say I am lucky, falling into a hundred pit traps during my youth, and still gifted with days up to now, in good health and still breathing. 

The past I made helped shaped me to who I am now.

And thinking now about the lemons of life?

Well, I suppose there's plenty lemonade to make today and tomorrow.

Sweeter ones.